Don't Cross The Line

Finally, After left it for few months, sudden urge to type again. Problems are coming again.
F-U-T-U-R-E..! Supposed to be ??? Everyone is deciding or heading to their new path. What about me? Trying so hard to get my mind set on certain field. sigh.
Leaving, Finally the word is used on me, on us. Stepping forward to another new stage. Friends, leavin'.. Should be used to it right? Why .. Sorrowfulness still growing from the bottom of my heart?
Sigh. My mind is confused, confused by all these unpleasant thoughts. Showing I'm not growing up yet? Yea, definitely. The one who cannot decide her own future, damn useless. It's like a blind man lost his walking stick. Where am I heading to at last ?
Sometimes I wonder, Boys and Girls.. would it be better just be friends..? If cross the line, everything will change. more complicated. happiness would be getting more than last time but there are more problems to be faced slowly, and both might not be able to back like last time, used to be like friends.
Hmmm........
Why am I so lost...
haha.....

Big news

Update my blog again.
1. I bought a new mobile on 2nd october. W595
2. I got my car license last friday.
3. I always play in class instead of study. xp.
4. Friends not happy. =(
5. Plan for Genting trip with friends and family on 23th Dec. It's done.
6. SPM is around the corner.
7. WHO CAN HELP ME !!?

My hp lost

everybody i lost my hp today, still finding it.
my mum still didnt know yet...
die man....
please don't contact that number

Abrupt change

Finished trial.. yeah ! but surprisingly I don't feel excited at all. I feel I lost something and strange that I didn't hold my book to study today. I wish to pick up my History textbook and read. You may think I'm odd but I know myself, I didn't do well in my exam. The chinese essay I picked the first one to write entitled : How Do I Look Upon Myself. I thought about for a few minutes..should I pick this topic ? Normally I write essay is following my heart.. I wrote about myself. People around me have their own talent but I don't have. Last time I felt bad about it and as days go on, I learn how to love myself. I walked out from the shadow. I wrote out the story, at the end I don't know will I get high marks for Chinese..
Recently, I find out that there's another me inside my body. the more emotional one. I went for a talk in Main Convent, the speaker said everyone have two personalities. my 2nd one is more emotional.. EMO-GIRL?? oh no.. but I won't cut myself or do anything stupid. Friends I know won't be together all the time, I know one day each of us will leave to chase after our dreams. But I have been living like this since standard 1..everyday go to school,meet friends, chat ... suddenly change..I admit, there's a sightly unpleasant feeling in my heart. I didn't show out to them, just when I'm alone, I start to think about it. Many friends have started to plan for their further study. Some will stay here, some will leave. When one by one tells me, they want to leave.. yea, study at oversea is good ..but I think : So Fast, everyone has to leave. I'm like..something is missed. My mum says I am not mature enough, friends of course won't be together for a long time. yea, I am immature but you can't stop me from thinking that. sigh...
Sometimes, tears will flow out automatically. Shireen says it is involutary action. I cry more compared to the last 4 years. I wonder is my hormone changed? an abrupt change of attitude.
please condone I sometimes look down ..
Nothing much I wanna say..
it's a rainy day in my heart today ..

Animation

video that you will never miss in your lifetime.. haha

Car Learning

Today I have my driving lesson for 2nd time at Sepakat. haha.. Parking is tough.. The teacher praised me, "pandai !" ..see.. so those who think I'm gonna make the teacher vomit through out the lessons ...you guys are so wrong !! haha... today is the muslims have their first day puasa...
oh ya.. I saw ooi too.. it was her first day to drive.. haha...
AYU.. GAMBATEH neh...
hehe...
exams are nearer to us... my gosh...
thrill......
erm... finally get back my car after repairation.=)
that's all for today...
haha...

yesterday we have our choir farewell in music room. they prepare a sketch for us.. so funny.. too bad I din take pic for it..
Janice teh's look made me burst into laugh...
Cheryl too.. So cute her plaits...

Update

such a long time I didn't update my blog. Friends always complain about it. i'm sorry guys. haha...
I don't know what to write and erm... no time to write. form5 is really busy and hectic. so many people sick recently.. I see getting more and more people putting on the masks.. I can really feel the danger of H1N1... Don't wish anyone i know will get infected by this virus.
erm...last 2 weeks, my sis and I went to grandma's house during weekend.. we have lots of fun there...Morning, we have our breakfast..after 2 hours.. food are served to us. lunch time, we ate roti canai...after 2 hours eat again... I didn't feel hungry at all throughout the day... >.<... *GAIN WEIGHT*
Next, I got my L license finally.. yeah.. my dad has bought a car for me.. erm..for the family la..
I will get the car tomorrow.. haha... but cannot drive it yet.. maybe can drive around my housing area... people don't worry.. it's safe.. p/s : I even bought a keychain for my car..



Ow... I love to watch Slam Dunk recently... everyday spend half an hour as my leisure.


Plenty of my hair has dropped...because of study ??? stress?? Arhhh I really don't know.. I dont want become bald...OMG !!! I see everyone starts studying ..and working so hard.. what's the heck am I doing.. I'm so slow to finish even one chapter... !!!

yesterday... I went to Golf Club with ber's , shireen's, auntie ann's and ying xin's families to have dinner at Japanese Restaurant...!!

Kl trip with shireen's family and mine...

KL 2 days 1 night trip .. @Shireen and I@

*The toilet we went... before we reached Kuala Lumpur

*Roti BOY !! we're the first customers to buy it...*MY HONEYMOON restaurant*

*We ate DURIAN PANCAKE & drank MANGO TONG SUI


* Ah Qi & I

*DOREMON SHOP
* SUBWAY
* Yo.. What's up.. GIRLS' Shopping time... >.<

* CRAZY in Fitting ROOM

*7a.m. got up from bed...and went for swimming.......... ^^

Do you support Science and Maths to be taught in Bahasa Malaysia ?

Everyone, if you DON'T LIKE science and maths to be taught in bahasa Malaysia .. please go to http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/ to vote for it !! It's Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad's blog. Don't worry. It doesn't involve anything in politics. just the people can voice out their opinions. =)

Different way of showing love

Different way of showing love and caring.

haha. Honestly, I may not be the best friend by your side to tell you don't cry and move on your life when you're sad.
But I will use my own way to show you I support you. It happens to my best friends.. recently, they love to sit in a small group suddenly confess all the problems and thoughts they have in minds for a long time. Well, it's not about me and not so linked with me. I am at the edge..."should I go over there or just stand here,don't move" ... I picked the second choice. because I don't know the situation and I know what can I do is.. right after they solve it.. cry for it.. I "counsel" them.. of course I'm not very good in counseling ...
anyway, as time flies, I notice we have grown up.a lot. We will separate and move on our life. wonder how would it be. I really miss the moment I have now. hope we won't just meet once in a year or slowly friends forget me.

That's the sharing for today. I know I din update blog for such a long time. haha. no time.
big boss. ^^

p/s: may get a laptop soon. weeee..............>,<

Amazing Natural Phenomena

Red tides are also known as algal blooms - sudden influxes of massive amounts of colored single-cell algae that can convert entire areas of an ocean or beach into a blood red color. While some of these can be relatively harmless, others can be harbingers of deadly toxins that cause the deaths of fish, birds and marine mammals. In some cases, even humans have been harmed by red tides though no human exposure are known to have been fatal. While they can be fatal, the constituent phytoplankton in ride tides are not harmful in small numbers.

A circumhorizontal fire rainbow arc occurs at a rare confluence of right time and right place for the sun and certain clouds. Crystals within the clouds refract light into the various visible waves of the spectrum but only if they are arrayed correctly relative to the ground below. Due to the rarity with which all of these events happen in conjunction with one another, there are relatively few remarkable photos of this phenomena.

While many see these apparently perfect ice circles as worthy of conspiracy theorizing, scientists generally accept that they are formed by eddies in the water that spin a sizable piece of ice in a circular motion. As a result of this rotation, other pieces of ice and flotsam wear relatively evenly at the edges of the ice until it slowly forms into an essentially ideal circle. Ice circles have been seen with diameters of over 500 feet and can also at times be found in clusters and groups at different sizes as shown above.
Blue holes are giant and sudden drops in underwater elevation that get their name from the dark and foreboding blue tone they exhibit when viewed from above in relationship to surrounding waters. They can be hundreds of feet deep and while divers are able to explore some of them they are largely devoid of oxygen that would support sea life due to poor water circulation - leaving them eerily empty. Some blue holes, however, contain ancient fossil remains that have been discovered, preserved in their depths.
When a thick lava flow cools it contracts vertically but cracks perpendicular to its directional flow with remarkable geometric regularity - in most cases forming a regular grid of remarkable hexagonal extrusions that almost appear to be made by man. One of the most famous such examples is the Giant's Causeway on the coast of Ireland (shown above) though the largest and most widely recognized would be Devil's Tower in Wyoming. Basalt also forms different but equally fascinating ways when eruptions are exposed to air or water.

Amazing Natural Phenomena

Denise with me

Last Friday, I hang out with Denise.
haha... We watched Night at the museum 2.... laughed our heads off.
then, we went to played the "sand art" eerrm..don't know what is the name for it..
AHH !! I got picture here.
Oh well.. I know it looks like witch.. but I wish to tell you all.. the workers there din teach us how to colour it... i mean they din say we need to use BLACK as outline !!! but they told other kids !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T.

anyway.. have a nice day with Denise, my sis and a friend.
we played car racing... basketball..and so on.. it hit my head so many times..

New moon Trailer

New moon Trailer !

Day with Ton

Day with Ton
Today hang out with Ton ^^.. we have a great time............ !!!!!
And we watched Angels and Demons.. But at last..we kept talking because we don't understand the story. haha..
I'm so much fatter than her... T.T

Quiz

I did the facebook quiz : Which hair colour suits you ?!!
Answer : you are very luck you fill like the whole world does not get you and you are very unique your lucky to have had black

Which Twilight girl you are ??? - The answer I get is Isabella Swam.... ^^



Why go through all the complications of dating a bad boy when you could just be with a good old fashion nice guy? He’ll always be there for you when you need him (even if you don’t ask), he’ll cheer you up when you’re down, he’ll play violin for you in the middle of the forest, and he’ll give you sage-like words of wisdom on Life and Love. He’s one yummy fortune cookie.

* I did the test which F4(korean) is perfect for me ?
Can you see how sweet it is ?? !!! i played facebook about what is my dream room !! ^^

Enjoying the whole day by playing the quiz .. ^^

HAng out

haha.. tomorrow date with ton ton.. first time we hang out together. hope we will have lots of funs..

Today is the last day for this semester... we have a little concert for teachers. Great PERFORMANCES...

Nothing much to write. haha.

Birthday

I celebrated my 17th birthday on 20th may. They brought me to MCDONALd.. but I didn't know their plans... then we went to Ipoh Swimming Club.. haha.. have a lot of funs.. !! really enjoyed.
I got many presents.. I know this year is the last year for my classmates to celebrate birthday with me. because next year everyone will go to different places to move on their life. !...really appreciate what they have done for me. thanks ya.
it is a memorable day.. and.. an old man took our picture when we were at MCD. everyone please be careful if you go there. !!!

Lelong

Lelong lelong
Hey, I have a 1GB NOKIA memory card would like to sell to you..
RM40.. or less than that if you want.
I have bought another new mobile so I can't use it.
whoever wants please leave a message here.
it is in GOOD CONDITION.. I'll delete all my stuffs in it. No viRUS...
TRUST ME =)

Connie Talbot

No doubt sure you know this girl is connie talbot who is only 6 when she took part Britain's got talent

American Idol

everyone !! American idol is going for finale... ADAM & KRIS !!!
omg omg omg.. Danny GOOKEY... feel sorry for him. he is the master vocal .. !!!

HOW CAN TWO PERFECT GUYS WITH GOOD VOCALS AND NICE LOOKING APPEAR IN MY LIFE ?!!!!!!!!
hahaha....

biscuits

Can you believe these are biscuits ???^^

pic

Random post.
I like this pic ^^

k770i

today 1st may. i have bought a new mobile. hehe. act i planned to buy w580i...
but the salesman explained to me why this so great.. ^^
i bought the black one.. yee pee !!!!

Mr. April is leaving

Mr. April Is Leaving
Hey! Do you all notice that Mr. April is leaving us soon ? When he drives his car and waves his hands with us and reach at the corner..
guess !!! who will he meet ?
Ms May !! What comes into your mind ?
Mid year exam.. Yea..besides??
after exam, is 20th may.you all can take a rest and think what to do NEXT !!
Enjoy your May !!
=)

April

APRIL
I don't like this APRIL. there are too many conflicts happen to me. Stress, the 1st time I have such big stress, now I understand why some people cannot cope with stress. I wish to buy a book consists of many jokes. but it has been sold out. sigh. Like what Bernice said, " I don't know how to express myself anymore." You give me more stress it will not just come out what you want me to be. You push me to the edge don't mean I can fix myself into it. I'm not flexible enough. I am a high "S"... today I went to Main Convent to listen a talk about personality. It shows I'm a loyal and very firm in relationships. I search for long term relation. in friendships or family or love...
It's quite accqurate. Because it also says that I cannot accept change fast.
Losing it is worse than gaining it. I rather hope it never comes to me than it just disappears infront of me suddenly.

Outdate

Outdated

I am like fish out of water these days .. I feel I've changed. Less talking but my mind always wanders off into the space. Because of exam and so many things that are indescribable.
I love solitary life already. Not joining much people but live in my own world. I still love to chat but I still find I'm odd. I don't know what happen to me.
I went to pc fair.. people said about wireless network ..I don't know how to use it..I am so outdated to all these new technologies...
haha...I'm a barbarian..

Funny advertisment

A funny advertisement. watch it !! =)

Dream

DREAM

I have a weird dream yesterday, when I woke up, my eyes were wet.
I dreamed I was in a car with my family, my dad was driving us to a hill. I was holding something which I needed to return it to the forest. We reached at the hill and I saw many giraffes. I saw one was really tall and I asked my dad,"Dad, is it the tallest one in this world ? Can't believe I can see it !" Suddenly, it lifted its head and looked at me. I smiled.
I heard somebody honked his car. The giraffes were frightened and they ran away. My dad quickly moved the car and we had a narrow escape. But when I reached to a safety place I heard some villagers said..somebody died just now.She was my friend. In the dream, I thought I cause her to death. I became hysterical and always cried. I saw her soul in my class and everyone didn't know she was dead. I told my friends she was dead and it was her soul.. She was talking with others. People didn't touch her so they didn't know she was transparent.
My parents brought me to S'pore, I ran away from everyone. I rode a bus and Ah mei jie jie followed me. She said I can stay here anytime I want.
And I woke up.
Weird dream.

birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HENRY LEE !! See i'm so good I remember your birthday =). have a nice day !! 21st this year.. getting older .. yam gong ^^

Special edit by Janice

We're so cute and pretty, aren't we ? ^^

Choir friends

The big gang.. lol

Smaller Jan and Small Jan.. ^^.. I love this picture

Scribble

Scribble

I have no ideas what happen to me recently or just what have happened to people around me, if you're kind enough, please tell me.
I wonder are my friends really my friends. this sounds ridiculous because I'm already form 5. I don't even know how to differentiate. Friends are friends but why I can't tell them my problems anymore..? Not they don't want to listen is when I see their faces I don't even wanna talk to them my problems. 1st, I have been observing people around me and I make some comments. I have a friend, don't want to mention her name here (that's hurt).. sometimes when I talk to her, she answers me like dead fish...like not very please to answer me. but when I hear she is on the phone with her boyfriend, she can be like very sweet and nice. I didn't aware of that at 1st, until my sis told me that problem I realise yea..sometimes she is doing that to me too. Besides, I don't like her attitude. I play with her but she asks me what is that.. I just talk to her nicely but in the end she says.. "I don't want" with an annoying tone. that makes me feel so uncomfortable.. she is like wanna fight back. It's rude. and this is not the 1st time she does that to me. Morover, when it comes to something ..she has different answer compare to mine. She will fight back (of course she can) but her tone and face make me wanna scold her. At the end, she gets wrong and just laughs away without saying sorry.
Next, another friend. sometimes I really cannot work with her. It's face problem again. When I suggest another way to her, her face will clump together. I look at her face I don't really wanna talk to her. that makes me not happy and edgy and I show my sullen face too. I don't know is my problem or her problem... but when it comes to friendship..she can be a good friend.
Another one. this is special case. I don't feel like talking to her my problems because I think once I talk to her, it's like wasting her time. She has more things to do rather than hearing my problems. That's what I feel. I don't want to disturb her. Last time I used to know many of her things... but now.. everytime people ask me about her.. I only can answer them "sorry, I don't know"...
Last Sunday, my chemistry tutor said I'm getting lazy. he looked disappointed and I felt so sorry and wanted to cry. I wanna get good results. but I really don't know where to start from..and how to study............... PLEASE GUIDE ME...
Anyway, about my friends. I am not backstabbing them, I just want to tell them how I feel...
If they wanna angry.. I'm sorry. and I know I'm not really good because I am still a human.

April Fool

April Fool's day. Today, I have fooled so many people and being fooled by friends too ! I sms my aunt told her my dad slapped me and I ran away from home. I asked her to fetch me from somewhere. Then she replied "Why you do that ..I'm so disappointed at you..I won't bother you anymore... and bottom of the msg written happy april fool's day...OH MY GOD... I was being fooled... T.T.. Then, I tricked Matthew Cheong but in the end he tricked me back I didnt even know that...STUPID !!!!! then, my sis and I rang Shireen up.. We told her a junior carved her name on her hand..she really believed it.. BODOH-Nya.. haha.. We rang Shireen's sis.. but she din get into our traps.. haih......... Ai ling and sabrina were being fooled by me.. haha.. all become my preys..
hahaha.. FOol ~ hehehehe

A 11-year-old kid

A 11-year-old Kid

She is just 11...can you believe it ?

Recover

I viewed my friend's blog. He wish I can recover soon. So touched ! Thanks, wooi lun.. haha. praise you here.
and my throat is better already but I cannot eat sour plum.. if not my ulser can cause me fatal. hehe.
hope you recover soon yea... !!!

Taken

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.. I'm strongly recommending you all to watch a movie called "Taken".. starring by Liam Neeson, Maggie Grace, Katie Cassidy.

Let me give you all a small description.
A parents were divorced and they had a daughter, Kim. The mother married another rich man and they lived with Kim. The father was a spy for country and he had retired. Kim wanted to go traveling with her friend, Amanda. She was just 17. She lied to her father that she went to Paris only but indeed they had planned to go to many places.
When they reached Paris, Amanda met a guy in airport and he invited them to a school party. She gave him their house's address. imminent, a group of men broke into their house and grabbed Amanda. Kim saw it when she was on the phone with her dad. Her dad asked her to calm down and told him all the traits she saw the men had. She was kidnapped,then. He went to Paris and saved her. If you like action movie..you should watch it. You can see the cruelty of the men in this world.