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I have no ideas what happen to me recently or just what have happened to people around me, if you're kind enough, please tell me.
I wonder are my friends really my friends. this sounds ridiculous because I'm already form 5. I don't even know how to differentiate. Friends are friends but why I can't tell them my problems anymore..? Not they don't want to listen is when I see their faces I don't even wanna talk to them my problems. 1st, I have been observing people around me and I make some comments. I have a friend, don't want to mention her name here (that's hurt).. sometimes when I talk to her, she answers me like dead fish...like not very please to answer me. but when I hear she is on the phone with her boyfriend, she can be like very sweet and nice. I didn't aware of that at 1st, until my sis told me that problem I realise yea..sometimes she is doing that to me too. Besides, I don't like her attitude. I play with her but she asks me what is that.. I just talk to her nicely but in the end she says.. "I don't want" with an annoying tone. that makes me feel so uncomfortable.. she is like wanna fight back. It's rude. and this is not the 1st time she does that to me. Morover, when it comes to something ..she has different answer compare to mine. She will fight back (of course she can) but her tone and face make me wanna scold her. At the end, she gets wrong and just laughs away without saying sorry.
Next, another friend. sometimes I really cannot work with her. It's face problem again. When I suggest another way to her, her face will clump together. I look at her face I don't really wanna talk to her. that makes me not happy and edgy and I show my sullen face too. I don't know is my problem or her problem... but when it comes to friendship..she can be a good friend.
Another one. this is special case. I don't feel like talking to her my problems because I think once I talk to her, it's like wasting her time. She has more things to do rather than hearing my problems. That's what I feel. I don't want to disturb her. Last time I used to know many of her things... but now.. everytime people ask me about her.. I only can answer them "sorry, I don't know"...
Last Sunday, my chemistry tutor said I'm getting lazy. he looked disappointed and I felt so sorry and wanted to cry. I wanna get good results. but I really don't know where to start from..and how to study............... PLEASE GUIDE ME...
Anyway, about my friends. I am not backstabbing them, I just want to tell them how I feel...
If they wanna angry.. I'm sorry. and I know I'm not really good because I am still a human.
I wonder are my friends really my friends. this sounds ridiculous because I'm already form 5. I don't even know how to differentiate. Friends are friends but why I can't tell them my problems anymore..? Not they don't want to listen is when I see their faces I don't even wanna talk to them my problems. 1st, I have been observing people around me and I make some comments. I have a friend, don't want to mention her name here (that's hurt).. sometimes when I talk to her, she answers me like dead fish...like not very please to answer me. but when I hear she is on the phone with her boyfriend, she can be like very sweet and nice. I didn't aware of that at 1st, until my sis told me that problem I realise yea..sometimes she is doing that to me too. Besides, I don't like her attitude. I play with her but she asks me what is that.. I just talk to her nicely but in the end she says.. "I don't want" with an annoying tone. that makes me feel so uncomfortable.. she is like wanna fight back. It's rude. and this is not the 1st time she does that to me. Morover, when it comes to something ..she has different answer compare to mine. She will fight back (of course she can) but her tone and face make me wanna scold her. At the end, she gets wrong and just laughs away without saying sorry.
Next, another friend. sometimes I really cannot work with her. It's face problem again. When I suggest another way to her, her face will clump together. I look at her face I don't really wanna talk to her. that makes me not happy and edgy and I show my sullen face too. I don't know is my problem or her problem... but when it comes to friendship..she can be a good friend.
Another one. this is special case. I don't feel like talking to her my problems because I think once I talk to her, it's like wasting her time. She has more things to do rather than hearing my problems. That's what I feel. I don't want to disturb her. Last time I used to know many of her things... but now.. everytime people ask me about her.. I only can answer them "sorry, I don't know"...
Last Sunday, my chemistry tutor said I'm getting lazy. he looked disappointed and I felt so sorry and wanted to cry. I wanna get good results. but I really don't know where to start from..and how to study............... PLEASE GUIDE ME...
Anyway, about my friends. I am not backstabbing them, I just want to tell them how I feel...
If they wanna angry.. I'm sorry. and I know I'm not really good because I am still a human.
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