15+ going on 16...

Wow, it has been 1 or 2 years I didnt open this blogspot and write my blog here.Xp.

just feel like I want to write it today..so here we gooooo....haha.Recently, I have been thinking what I will do before world ends?? No doubt, I'll quickly run towards the boy I like and tell him I like him. well... SO Far... I dont think I want to have a boyfriend now. Study comes 1st. p/s: in reality, dont ever think that I will show my love to a boy before he does.

What is confusing me is.. Do boys really can read girls' minds? I wonder. My male friends cannot do that except one, S. He is a flirt so I may consider that it is a special case.xp.If one day before graduate, I like someone and he likes me too...and he shows his love to me, shall I accept it? What I am afraid is, if I say no but instead I am thumping my heart for saying that and he likes other..What a poor girl I am. but, in other way round, I accept him.. What will I face ?? parents... friends... school worksssssssss and many many more..... DOesnt it contradict ???? I guess so. haha. So, I am seeking for the answer before it really comes true. Today, I ask bernice,

what if a boy she likes is going to tell her he likes her so much..... what will she do. She answers me that she will ask the boy to wait for her. THat's it. I am happy with her answer because she solves my problem. haha...

2nd, to find a boyfriend, is he really has to understand my mind? I dont know... confusing. either he can make fun with me, jokking around or understand what i need ... what is the most important? These questions just suddenly pop up in my mind and I think if I can solve all of them, it is useful for me to look for one in future. ^^

3rd, I have been thinking ...... If I like someone(he likes me too), but I know there's impossible I will be with him for eternity. shall I accept him ?? I think I will. I keep our love as a sweet memory eventhough we cant be together at last. but but but... my mum tells me If I find a boyfriend in future, I must think he is my soulmate before I accept him. WHAt??? !!! If I am in relationship at the age of 18 or 19... he is my soulmate ...dont you think is too early for me to set my mind ... he is my one and only.. ??? I go back to school and ask my friend. most of them say they will treat their loved ones as their soulmates (in future)..... hmmmm... Am I abnormal?? haha. WHat I think is. I like him and just want to see how can we be... and I am serious with it also. Or I will even hurt him more if I do that.. and we dont even can be friends...???

Lastly.. all are the questions in my mind... I don't have boyfriend yet. so friends.. If you see my blog ..plz dont think I have one now. haha. honestly. I dont have. XD.

here I go studying again.............. work hard for mid-year...