Dead BorEd

I don't know what happened to me this week, kinda have mood swing this whole week ! even I have tears rolling when I woke up, because of a dream, that was too funny, deep down, is there something hidden in my heart? that I couldn't find a place to release it. something unsolved, think too much...
1st, is about my study, suddenly feel like no mood to listen what lecturers teach this week, I am not paying attention this whole week.. feel sleepy, but at night I couldn't sleep well..
something pop out from my mind is : Hormone Change. since this year, whenever I have tension, I will go through all types of symptoms ...but I don't know how to handle it.
2nd, guys. this doesn't bother me much, but I was asked again the same question. at first, I set my mind that I wanna focus on study... but after sometimes, when I look at my friends enjoying their love life, whenever they are in trouble, the guy will be the first to help them. Sometimes girls like me do really need this kind of feeling, feel safe ! I also hope I will have one, however reality kills me...I heard the couple quarrel, the girl cried, all these things, I experienced before. it's like ArGh ! too troublesome, yes, it's so true.. I hate facing this part, quarrel will definitely affect the study.
The guy wishes to hold me back, that's what he told me..I just can say sorry. although it did make me recall back all those sweet days, sorry, not now..
even back together, I will break one day.
my mind changed.
not that immature anymore.
I know how I want my future goes before getting into a REAL relationship.
So, all those flower, soap opera thinking for LOVE needs not appear in my dream again.
It's very contradicting. I am 18, still hope for getting into a romantic love like other college students have..waiting for the right guy.
the other hand, I know it doesn't last long, I will leave this place to pursue my study elsewhere, strive for future...
I go alone, not with friends that are by my side now or parents.
The path I choose, I face it myself...
Long love distance, I saw the example. within half year, broke up. It doesn't work well for our age now.

Although I told friends about these, there are still something lock inside my heart.. is it all this while.. I make the problems "condensed" in my heart too long... until it gonna explode? I don't know...

I kinda like lost myself somehow....
trying to get back into one piece.
just wish to continue be a happy girl...

*SharinG*

it seems like for ages I din express my feelings here.
suddenly have the mood, so here I am...
been in college for several months, seriously, I have experienced tonnes of things that I never had out of my life before ! high school girl like others. but living by myself, completely different, not controlled by anyone-parents, but I have to decide what I should do or should not. it's really challenging, as people say we study outside might become a spoilt child or something even worse. so far, I think I am still all right, but just getting more independence. learn how to take care myself, last time I always get sick after studying here, after sometimes, I used to it..although I am sick now.lol...
my friends, mostly are couple up ! at 1st I will still miss the moment being into relationship, being care, etc, but after sometimes, I think I don't need a boyfriend now, I have friends and freedom, with a boyfriend, it's just like i need to care about his feelings, and not really can enjoy my single life ! boyfriend ?! why so rush ?!! it isn't something I want !!! I finally get this into my mind !!! however, sometimes still will have crush on others, but it's not a big deal what... ~
studying college I know many friends and I was so scare I couldn't enjoy my life here compared to high school time...but it turns out well ! everyday I laugh like crazy fellow...although will go through some tough time too !!!
I look around, people start to work hard for MOCK or some don't really show this infront of us, but they are preparing for it too... it makes me feel scared too.. I keep telling myself I need to complete this and that but in the end, can't complete it at all... my determination not that strong, you know ? I feel sad for this !!!!
i cannot hold a book and sit for whole day which I would really try to do for so many years !!! I just relax and read a while and relax again, just like now !!!
is there any better way to improve myself??
I wonder.

13th - Friday

13th - Friday, supposed it's a bad day for everyone... but for me , it's a lucky day ! suddenly my friend bet with me by wearing the look-like-clown costume, and I accepted it ! in the end, he suddenly asked me to choose the dress i like...
and I chose it... !! hahaha..
now think about it, it seems I have dream about this before, I mean I dreamed I received a present suddenly... now i really feel that I can foresee something sometimes, it just weird, doesn't make sense.. I dreamed I heard the conversation of somebody and it really happened after few months, exactly the same !! what do we call it ?!!!?!
I really don't know. I told my mom about this, she thought I was crazy and said it was a bad sign if it were REAL ...
well, still have few more weeks to MOCK, really scare and tried to put efforts into my studies because everyone wishes to get into the best uni, I hope so, with scholarship !
everyone, LET's FIGHT ~!!!

Exam is over !

my final exam finally finished, hooray ! but the results, eerrrrr... just temporary forget about it ! hahahaha...

now is packing all the things, thinking how should I spend my holiday !

Yesterday night, my friends and I were watching football competition, WORLD CUP, we totally forgot the exam, hahaha... Argentina v Korea Republic, Louis lost to me !!!! yeahhhhhhhhhh !!! hahahahahahahahaha.....*they so "gan jeoung" about the match
*this one, wanted to tell the whole world about the match (mobile)
*these two so sad about the match, especially LOUIS !!!

*SERIOUS TALK !

Before that,
*all busy studying
*headache !

*BURST !!!

yesterday, Shiow chi and I cooked spaghetti for my friends. and we really have an enjoyable night, laughter in the house...
cooking the spaghetti half way, we accidentally broke the chopsticks into two !!! hahahahaha

That's all !! :)

Stand up where I have fallen down

On Friday, I was not in class for whole day because the "teachers" - I don't know who they are, came to my school and taught us how to make a forum and ect for climate cool project. My physics ... sucks. I am the worst among my friends. 60 marks + + .. well, I am damn stupid I find. Even an easy formula I also can't remember on that day + I was having diarrhea. I can't focus in class, tuition or whenever. I am not focusing at all. Only know how to day dream ... Faeces.
Damn tired. Good luck. =)