Saturday, July 23, 2011

蜡笔的故事


我两年没有写散文了,大家迁就点看吧。 ==lll

我需要一点意见,来更进我那几乎生锈的文笔,也就是你们所谓的Reader Response,哈哈哈。

如果你觉得我写得很怪异的话,请告诉我。〉_〈

声仪,谢谢你给我的灵感,大家一起加油吧。=)

以上。

蜡笔

并排的木桌上,摆着一盒散开的蜡笔。黑色的盒盖上显眼地印着“辉柏嘉”的标志。

桌子旁站着一个哭泣的小孩,豆子般的眼泪一颗一颗掉下,爬在他那被涂得红通通的脸蛋上。小铭稚龄地把双颊上的泪水擦掉,却连带着脸上的红色蜡笔印也擦到耳边去。看着两边脸被红色蜡笔涂鸦得一蹋糊涂的小铭,我呆立在原地,突然有点不知所措。回过神来,才发现自己该立刻动手处理,至少,先让这刺耳的哭声停止。

这些孩子又闯祸了,是我低估了这些七岁的小毛头。可是眼前这幅情景,让一个刚上任的班主任,情何以堪呢?

[老师…他…] 小铭吸一吸悬挂着的鼻涕,指着对面的小荣,抽泣着说,[是他…画…我…呜呜…]

小荣矮小的身躯却没有一丝害怕,眼睛死死盯着哭得稀里哗啦的小铭,眼眶里也带着打滚的泪珠,却始终没有掉下来。他的手上紧握着一支被磨钝的红色蜡笔。想必在我还没进班之前,小荣用蜡笔狠狠地在小铭脸颊上画圈圈,让此刻的小铭看起来像个化妆失败的小僵尸。

班上的小同学惊讶地盯着他们两个,有些眼睛瞪得老大,仿佛这比观赏吉尼斯世界纪录的现场还要精彩。我安抚了班上的同学以后,带着小僵尸,啊不对,是小铭出去洗脸。踏出课室之前,我回头看看这起闹剧的肇事者。

他低着头闪躲同学们的眼光,但他的手心里,却依然握着那支蜡笔。

很紧很紧。

***

我承认,我真的不了解这孩子。

事后,我尝试问过小荣,为什么要那样做。他只是咬着嘴唇,频频摇头。其实我并不奢望,能从他口中问出些什么,其他老师都说他口里含着金块,因为几乎不是必要,他都不会开口说话。平时在班上,他就像个若有若无的幽灵一样,总是静静地坐在角落。我以为他只是一时调皮,想要发泄而已。

第二次,又是他,又是红色蜡笔。

这一次哭的是小荣,因为我按捺不住自己,对他吼了一句,[小荣!你怎么又欺负同学!]。他的身体卷缩成一团,把头低得就快要亲吻到桌上的作业簿,像个受惊吓的刺猬一般,抗拒着所有外界的接触。他的眼泪像陨石一样,吧嗒吧嗒地坠落在他的作业簿上,沾湿了大半页。

身旁男同学的手被他用红色蜡笔胡乱地涂鸦,很多红色的蜡笔印一横一竖地躺在他的手臂上。小同学用无辜得令人怜悯的眼神看着我,很明显他并不知道,自己为什么会成为画板。我很仔细地看过这些蜡笔印,即不像字体,也不像图样。可我总觉得,这些印记像些什么。

也许小孩的世界,大人永远无法理解。

我凑近小荣,用纸巾轻轻地拭去他粉嫩的脸上挂着的泪痕,尽可能放缓我的语气。[小荣啊,]我弯下身摸摸他的头,把披散在他脸上的发丝扫开,看着他的眼睛说,[下次不许再这样了,知道吗?]

他没有点头,也没有回应,不过倒像是用力把即将掉下来的眼泪忍住了。这时候,我隐约听见他紧闭的双唇里,挤出两个字。他说得那么轻,轻得几乎没有人听见,更也许根本不想让别人听见的两个字。

妈妈。

***

第三次,还是他,还是那些红色的,纵横交错的蜡笔印。

这一次我再也忍无可忍了,既然他抿着嘴唇什么都不肯说,唯一一个了解他的方法,就是通知他的父母。那一天放学,小荣的妈妈预期出现在办公室门外。她是很朴素的一个女人,穿着不花俏的深蓝色长袖衣,扎得有点随意的马尾,加上她苍白的脸色,让她更显憔悴。

她看到我以后,没等我开口,就连连说着很抱歉,没有管教好小荣之类的话。小荣一见到妈妈,就拔腿奔到她的身后,猛拉着妈妈的袖子。当妈妈试图安抚身后的小荣时,我看见了她被拉起的衣袖下,在那比她脸色更苍白的皮肤上,有些像是被鞭打过的伤痕。妈妈挣脱了小荣的手,有点慌张地把衣袖拉下来,很快地把手放到身后。

突然,我的脑袋像是被强力冲击过一般,因为那些伤痕让我想起了某些东西。

就像是,那些七横八竖的红色蜡笔印。

真的很像。

***

我不喜欢老师,因为她问我很多问题,我不想回答。可是妈妈说要乖,要听老师的话。

小铭每次都说我矮,他跟爸爸一样讨人厌,所以我把他画得像爸爸一样。爸爸每次脸红红地回家,手里拿着一个瓶子,我都会看到妈妈哭,而且她的手上和脚上都有很多很多红色的印记。我不知道那些是什么,只觉得妈妈好像很痛,很伤心。那次我画小斌,老师就骂我,我真的不明白。

我只是,想念妈妈而已。


这是一篇很好的文章,我的朋友---嘉颖执笔的。



Monday, July 18, 2011

6yrs old kid saw my cousin's picture in my phone.
Teacher : Is she pretty ?
Kid : (nodded his head and blushed)
Teacher : You want her to be your girlfriend ?
Kid : (nodded his head and blushed)
Teacher : But she is in Singapore.
Kid : (disappointed face)

(girl) 5 yrs old kid : Hi, Ms Cheong.
Teacher : How's your day ? :)
5 yrs old kid : Today I have spelling but I get one wrong.
Teacher : Ohhh, come, sit on my lap.
Teacher : Do you love me ? If you love me, kiss my cheek.
...(she kissed me)
Teacher : Thanks! You want my kiss ?
(she nodded her head and I kissed her. After that she smiled and walked away ♥)

Teacher : Class, today teacher is not feeling well.
Student A (6 yrs old) : Teacher, I will be very obedient today !
Teacher : What did you say ?!
Student (6 yrs old) : You are sick, I cannot make noise, I will be obedient today !
Teacher : Ow.... ♥

Student A (6 yrs old) : Ms Cheong, I am not ultraman today !
Teacher : Who are you today ?
Student A : Spiderman ! (pointing his shirt)
Teachre : HaHa, all right Spiderman !
A boy was wearing Ultraman t shirt.
Teacher : ultraman ! ultraman !
boy (6 yrs old) : what ?
Teacher : faster copy down the question.
boy : ok.
Teacher : ultraman ! ultraman !
boy : Ms cheong, can you please be quite ? I need to focus and copy the question..

Thursday, July 14, 2011

being a teacher.



Teacher : All right class, if you finish your work, I will give you a sticker !

Students : Yeah !

Next day,

Student A : Teacher, I want to look at your sticker book !

Teacher : After class, I will let you to have a look.

Student A : Teacher, where is your sticker book ?

Teacher : After class, I will let you to have a look.

after 15 minutes,

Student was "emo-ing" ...

Teacher : Why are you not doing your homework?

Student A : Teacher, I want your sticker book.

Teacher : @#@$#$^&^%*&(*(*$#@#$$#^%&.....

NEXT !

Teacher : all right class, draw anything you want on this piece of paper !

Students : Teacher, I want to draw rabbits, rainbows, penguins .......

Teacher was helping the students to draw rainbows...

Student B : Teacher, why your rainbow, the red is at the bottom ?

Teacher : hahaha, this is an upside down rainbow ! (T.T)

Student C : Teacher, I want you to draw penguin for me.

Teacher : Can you draw it yourself ? I am teaching the others.

Student C : Teacher, I want you to draw penguin for me.

Teacher : Draw it yourself please. Quiet !

Student C : Teacher, I want you to draw penguin for me.

Teacher : .............................................................

Then,

Student D : Teacher, what are you drawing?

Teacher : Iron !

Student D : Teacher, your drawing is so ugly !

Teacher : Sorry, can you please draw it for me ?

Student E : Teacher, X says she eats shits at home !

Teacher : Don't eat !

Student E : Teacher, Y throws things at me !

Teacher : Don't throw !

Student E : Teacher, I get chocked !

Teacher : Huh ?! Come come ! Are you okay?

Student E : Teacher, I am hot !

Student E : Teacher ! Teacher ! Teacher !

Teacher : ..... (faint)

One night, teacher met a handsome student.

Teacher : Handsome boy ~

Student F : *blush* *walked away*

Teacher : Handsome boy ~

Student F : *blush*

Teacher : Hey, do you know my name ?

Student F : Don't know. *blush*

Teacher : I am Ms. Cheong.

Next day,

Student F : Ms Cheong !

Teacher : Who calls me?

Student F : Me~ *blush*

Teacher : All right, let's do your homework !

Student G : I am bored !

Teacher : Do your homework please !

Student G : I am sleepy !

Teacher : Go wash your face.

Student G : I am bored !

Teacher : ... ... ... help !

Student H : Teacher, what is frangipani ?

Teacher : uhm, a kind of flower ?!

Student H : I want to see !

Teacher went home and google search for her.

Student I : Teacher, can you please draw me a green angry bird?

Teacher : I don't know how to draw.

Student J : Student I, I am sure teacher knows how to draw blue angry bird !

Teacher : T.T ....

NExt !

Teacher : Do you like to sing ? (prepared a song for them)

Student K,L,M : NO ! NO ! NO !

Teacher : Do you want me to sing for you ?

Students : Huh? Teacher, you want to sing infront of so many people here?

Teacher : *slient*


Sunday, July 10, 2011


JOGGING everyday !
I am sure, I will lose weights in no time !

Saturday, June 25, 2011


I am satisfied of my life now. little tiny stuffs, could make me happy for whole day.
how wonderful it is, if this feeling keeps till the end. :)

Reunion





such a delightful day as to meet my ex-classmates again. All have different looks but still remain their cute and funny sides.
I watched Green Lanterns with Denise and Vivien today. I was scared by Denise's high-pitch scream, not the movie. haha.

FRIENDS ! no more words can be described, further.

Friday, June 24, 2011

out of expectation

now, I truly believe, we don't know what will happen in future. next second, next minute, next next days....
I always believe this will not happen, not prejudice. just feel hard to believe they would make it happen.
we cannot be too certain about something which we, how would I say it, urhm, which we just start to make a draft, but not in a real form yet. we cannot give a confirm answer: YES/NO.
definitely not.

dearest friend,
just to let you know. I support you ! :D
haha.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

LOVE

LOVE can be simple.
if the other person is willing to save you with his life.
can we imagine, how deep the love is ? how far that it goes?
it is just a drama, soap opera, but it made me shedding tears.
I get touched not because of the characters acted too good, it is because I understand it. IT.
with half open sleepy eyes, I am writing this blog. not too sure what am I typing on keyboards, just wanna express : what I need more in life?
everyone in each stage will have different desires, right?
is another crossroad, for us to choose.
LEFT OR RIGHT?

Sunday, March 20, 2011

suddenly I have the urge to blog again. it sounds like PMS, blog once a month =p.

to this world, what's the meaning of war? What will those people do when tsunami attack them in the middle of war? will they still kill each other? or help each other out ? facing the enormous wave, will they hug each other in terror without differentiate who's the enemy ? I realise that, before things happen on us, we won't make any changes.

Is money important? Last time I didn't like to recieve red pocket as my present, I rather the adults bought me something I could use. but now, as I grow up, I understand red pocket is more useful than the THINGS now, does it apply to you too ? It doesn't mean I value the money more than anything, it is just that, money has become more important as my age increases. I am always in the middle of thinking two sides, absolute sides, it is either be too bad or too good, I try to balance it, in the end, it makes me to understand, only experience, can make me learn.

LOVE? I feel that, after I graduated from high school, I learn more about love. especially love for family. environment can make people change, I believe.

To trust, to give up, to avoid, to accept, it is not hard to experience these feelings, as long as, you are living as a human with Hearts.

just crap here!
tata

Thursday, March 10, 2011

volleyball

hey we come, it makes me feel alive since I joined volleyball, first, I love to play this kind of sports, 2nd, I get a proper training from the people.

doing exercise twice a week at least I can persuade myself I have change to keep fit, by not just sleep and eat, STUDY as well. hahahaha...

at the beginning of those training days, I was afraid of the new people. luckily Li Ying joined the club with me, and both of us really tried to learn as much as we can.

She is a fast learner, now she already can play it quite well compared to those in my high school.
The people there are friendly as well, I start to mix with them, hmmm, actually I've fun now !
although only left one month more, I will still appreciate the days I spent in this college, and volleyball club will be one of my best college memories !

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Rest in peace

Din expect my 6th uncle passed away yesterday in all sudden. From Chinese New Year, we knew there's a tumor in his lungs and waiting to do the test for it, not within a week, he passed away. in the operation, losing too much blood, I was at MCD, suddenly get a call from mom, I was shocked, ANOTHER OF MY FAMILY MEMBER LEFT US. although we seldom met, but we were family. meet once a year, or more than that, at least I could greet him when we meet, but not now, it's like the recorder, repeating what had happened last few years ago, my grandpa had passed away, now his brother left us, this big family, his children and his wife, deepest sadness and sorrowfulness, kept within themselves, I can understand, I've been through, life is a routine, I am afraid the closest family members will leave me soon, although it's a natural process, I know, I know this clearly.

Hope he rest in peace, sorry uncle, I didn't get to know you very well, but I appreciate the love of the family we had. see you.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Chinese new year 2011

chinese new year is just around the corner, start to countdown !! :)

every chinese new year will get to see the relatives whom I don't usually meet. chit-chat, sort of, reunion dinner.
all the process goes through every year, but it is very remarkable !

Hopefully this year will be a wonderful Chinese New Year :)

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Faster

I watched a new MOVIE again ! it's called FASTER. at first, the title of the movie didn't catch my eyesight until I saw the guy beside this BIG WORD, he is Dwayne Johnson, hahaha, somehow I love to watch his movies. Audrey and I went to watch it and it was very touched and cool. He took revenge for his brother to kill all of the bad guys, and one survived. There's a guy with beautiful eyes chased after him too... with all sorts of dramatic scenes you could't imagine that !
If you wanna know more about it, just go for a movie !

before that, I just went for volleyball training with Li ying, and today was quite happy cause I able to play it erm... Better than That DAY.... :)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Woke up in the middle of night, I dream of so many people. my ex-classmates, friends, I even met my Grandma who passed away for few years, it's kinda happy to meet her again. I always tell myself, she came to visit me. tears are rolling in my eyes.

recently, something has changed, we are no longer "litte kids", we need to think of our future. I started to think as well. been through ups and downs, finally and hopefully it will settle down, I've been thinking for days and nights. but thanks for the friends who are always there for me.

sometimes, the connection between humans are unique I would say it in this way. at first, we were close to each other, but slowly we are not. this doesn't make us become enemy, just not that close anymore, yea, sort of. I understand single bit about this person or that person... it helps me to grow a lot. MENTALLY ! well, you guys won't agree I know.

my friends have been telling me they are so stress for form 6, well guys, let's cheer up, don't make yourself get sick, take care !!! although we are all at different places, I believe hearts has linked us together.

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Capability

sometimes, when you wanna do something as you wish, ain't easy.
sometimes, we do need to bend our body to fate.
capability , this word becomes an important term in my life suddenly.
capability to do it, it really tests on your strength, not only that, it does include the people around you, to assist you for that.
Money ? Does money have something to do with your capability ?
for this current world, YES.
everyone knows money can't buy everything,
but money does can assist you to succeed, even in LIFE.
well,
there are other factors too, I, too lazy to list out all.

Passed by few cities, I stopped at this.
this is a student city, I called it as.
Every night,
as late as it better is,
girls and guys wearing fancy clothes,
holding cigarettes in their fingers,
playing around,
the smokes released from their noses,
inhaled by the trespassers,
or,
followed the movement of wind,
vanished in the air.
yea, I hate that seriously.
They may smoke at the streets,
infront of collage,
in pub,
snooker shops,
with a bottle of Heineken/Tiger Beer etc,
that's what they called Night life.

relate back to capability,
some rich kids just getting spoil,
spoil brats,
with the branded car they drive,
branded clothes they put on,
coming to this city ain't for study,
yea, study technically,
enjoying life instead.
I feel pity for their parents somehow,
although it is non of my business,
but thinking of others trying so hard to study,
to get scholarship,
they called them NERDS,
isn't showing the world is a bit unfair?
again,
we have to bend our body to FATE.

it's not trying to be a pessimist,
but it reflects the current world now.
the rich getting richer,
the poor getting poorer,
I read this extract from an article.

Capability needs some lucks to assist it, too.
I agree.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

this is the first holiday I din go to meet my friends at all, just families. well, I am busy everyday too, with study, and hang out with cousins.

get a lot of presents this time, when I open my wardrobe, I saw new clothes !!! from different relatives. they came back from all over the places, got me a shirt, jacket, etc. thank you so much. packing my luggage now, really need to think what should I bring back to my place.

there are so many things to do~
arghhhhhhhhhhh.........
can't wait to finish the exam, spend my time reading the books I like !! :)

that's all.
:)
cheers

Monday, October 11, 2010

AS first day

first day of AS, why am I so relaxing now ? Just finished the "heavy" paper. finally can gasp for air a while...

it's quite easy, hope I din miss out everything, and hope my hardwork does really pay off :)

my college peeps just sent me many messages for the wishes !! thanks guys !! LOVE YOU

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Shopping Spree

phew, finally finish my MOCK exam !!! I don't think I will get good results this time, it is so tough !! :( argghhhhhh !!!!!! especially my stats and maths papers !!!! kill me !!!
yesterday after finished exam, we went to TIME SQUARE to wander around, some girls did buy some clothes but Audrey and I just walked around looking for FOOD ~~!!! :)
after spending more than 4 hours there, some people already went back home, left Li ying, Shiow chi, Audrey, Hanley and I walking to the next destination-sungei wang ! it was not as crowded as time square, but my feet were so pain after walking whole day....
the worst part was taking KTM back to Subang, it's so tiring...we were like sardines in between the bread(people).. hard to grasp for fresh air. We went to Subang parade and Carrefour, to have our dinner and bought some books there !!! We went to 5 shopping malls in a day !! BREAK MY RECORD !! yeeepeee !!!!
today, shiow chi and i went to sunway pyramid, we just walked around to burn fats, in the end, ended up in popular, I sat on the floor reading books, which the kids would normally do !!! hahaa... lunch time, we went to Papa's John and the pizza I ordered was costly and small like ....as if it just a piece of bread !!! :(


now, just let me relax for a day, and fight again for AS ! :)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

*PhoTo EdiT*

*Janice* Myself :)
*WooI LuN*
*Jo Yee*
*ShioW ChI*
*DeNisE*
*AuDreY*
*Ton Ton*

The photos which are edited by me, just for fun !! :)